I was going to write a blog about decisions and who you consider or don’t consider when you making a decision. But as I started writing I could feel my world crumble. This is not what I need to write about. These are just thoughts. Meaningless, just like a bubble that pops after a few seconds. My own feelings starting to surface, something I have been trying to keep under control for some time. I feel like drowning. Drowning in my own busyness and "stuckness" at the same time. I tick jobs off just to add 10 more on the list once one is ticked off. All seemed to have come to a standstill and nothing is moving. I know I need to stop, be in the stillness. Once I do this heavy sadness hits me from deep within. I seem to lose myself within the knowing where I am going. All seems contradictive and as I continue my journey, the money pressure surfaces once again. Money is running faster, much faster out, than it is coming in. Life spins and turns faster than I can get hold of it. My head spins, my world turns and tears welling up in my eyes. I need time to let it surface. But what if I do? Can I control when to stop? Others rely on me. I have to be able to stop it. Or do I? Is it going to bring up what needs to come up? Or maybe I am being melodramatic, feeling sorry for myself? What for? I have all I ever dreamed off and more. Other people’s life seems to keep changing, moving...I know where I am heading....but same issues seem to arise again and again and the time gap in between re-arising issues becomes shorter. Is it all going to crumble? How am I going to emerge on the other side? What do I need to do to dig even deeper? To really look deep inside? To heal what is waiting to be healed? If you have an answer for me I am happy to hear from you! I wrote this as somebody might need to read this or maybe I just needed to tell........ Blessings to all and as always please feel free to share this blog if you enjoyed reading it. New likes on either business page Martina Manners and Violet Flame Wellness are always welcome and of course I would love to have you on board in the Healing Group for June 2018.